breaking my heart

Did you know?
• 49,551,703—Total abortions since 1973
• 1.37 Million—Abortions per Year in the U.S.
• 56% - Women having abortions in their 20’s
• 52% - Abortions before the 9th wk of pregnancy
• 43% - Estimated # of women will have had an
abortion by the time they’re 45 yrs old
• 750,000—Yearly average of teens (ages 15-19)
becoming pregnant
Statistics taken from Guttmacher Institute

So I received a newsletter yesterday from the pregnancy center with this information - I am so burdened by this - for years I have been, but even more now that I know the hurt of losing a child (even if unwillingly). Not that I want to go out and start picketing or burning clinics, but I feel I need to do something about the apathy our country has become accustom to regarding abortion. Just last week I had a conversation with a coworker who flat out told me "I am all for abortion because what if it doesn't work out between the two people" I was trying to be humble and compassionate in my response (not knowing this person's past) when I responded, "yes, but the choice was to made to have sex, and like anything, there are risks associated with it. there are so many people who want a child to love, who want to have a baby, but can't - what if every abortion turned into an adoption?"

how much happier would society be if we could save the mother's emotional health, mental health, and give the baby a loving, nurturing home? what about the fathers who wanted to keep the babies who now have to shoulder the guilt and pain of a mother's choice? what about the child with a beating heart that never got a chance? i've seen beating hearts at 5 weeks, 6 weeks, tell me that doesn't count for a life?

how great would it be to not have to wait for a year or more to adopt a baby, to not have to spend $20K plus to adopt a child (an abortion costs about $500)? and what if the doctors are wrong in their prediction that the baby will come out unhealthy or challenged? what if science can't always predict what will happen - believe me, I know that's true. doctors told me everything was great pre-birth of Marshall, and only later to find out they weren't okay. The doctors did great work, not to discredit that, BUT they are still human - not all knowing, not the ultimate healer - if so then what happened to my boy?

what if the choice was life?

do i think i will ever live to see abortion outlawed or regulated in this country - sadly, no. But I will not be silent about the love of a child, about the choice to choose life

off my soapbox now...